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Welcome to the September issue of our Helping Parents Heal Newsletter!  

Hello!  We are glad you have found us.  This newsletter is a space that allows us to share our amazing children. We are all in this together.  We understand and we walk the same path. Thank you for your compassion and for the constant support you provide.  Together, we will help each other heal! 

We have very exciting news!  Our website has undergone an extreme makeover.  The new Helping Parents Heal site was donated by a generous couple in honor of all parents who have children across the veil in hopes that it will bring ever more healing to those who are learning that love never dies. It is a wonderful tool to share our affiliate chapters, recommended books, providers, links and videos as well as our favorite causes. Please check it out at www.helpingparentsheal.org!  Katie Benedetto Jones of www.yellowrubberball.com has done beautiful work.

We have four new affiliate groups that will be offering monthly meetings; Northants, United Kingdom with Tracy Bayes and Katrina Thomson, Missoula, Montana with Jan McArthur and Joan Freedman, Desert Hills, Arizona with LeAnn Hull and Cave Creek, Arizona with Carol Allen.  Please check Facebook Events for their upcoming meetings, and learn more about each affiliate leader on our new website, www.helpingparentsheal.org.

For those of you who live in the Phoenix area, we have a wonderful upcoming meeting schedule! We have many talented speakers who have graciously agreed to give their time and energy to our group: Psychic Medium Jamie Clark on August 21st, Dr. Mark Pitstick, a board member of Helping Parents Heal, author and afterlife expert on September 18th, Psychic Medium Susanne Wilson on December 18th and Roberta Grimes, attorney, author and afterlife expert, on January 15th. Also, Irene Vouvalides has several amazing speakers scheduled to speak at her upcoming Hilton Head affiliate meetings.  You can read more about them in our Affiliate Chapters section below.  Please be sure to RSVP for these events as seating is limited! Hope to see you there.

First Annual Helping Parents Heal Conference April 2018
As many of you know, Helping Parents Heal (a 501C3 corporation) plans to hold its first annual conference in Scottsdale, Arizona in April, 2018.  We are thrilled about the many talented presenters who have agreed to speak as well as the 100+ parents who have already said they would join us for this joyful event.  Irene Vouvalides and Tracy Venters, our Hilton Head and Dallas affiliate leaders, are hard at work coordinating the conference.

We would love for you to inform your friends and family about the conference so that we can reach as many bereaved parents as possible. Our goal is to determine how many people would like to attend and to bring awareness of our need for donations to cover down-payment costs required to make the event a reality. Any donation of over $50 will be acknowledged in our conference program on a special 'In Loving Memory' page.  

Also, the fundraising site includes a link to a survey created by Tracy Venters to help us better plan for the conference.  We hope that all parents who are interested will fill it out and will perhaps make a donation to allow this conference to happen.  Please click here to be transferred to the fundraising site that includes Tracy's survey.

We hope to see you in Scottsdale in April 2018!

-Mark Ireland, Co-Founder of Helping Parents Heal

Sending love and light to each one of you and to your beautiful children.  You are not alone.

-Elizabeth Boisson, Co-Founder and President of Helping Parents Heal, Newsletter Editor and AffiliateLeader for Phoenix/Scottsdale.

Psychic Medium Jamie Clark Returns to HPH - Phoenix/Scottsdale August 21st!
Psychic Medium Jamie Clark 

Jamie Clark has always been a strong supporter of Helping Parents Heal.  Having him come to speak to our Parents on August 21st is a great opportunity for any parent who would like to receive a validation from their son or daughter.  The cost of the meeting is a $5 'love donation' that is split equally between Jamie and Unity of Phoenix.  Although a validation is not guaranteed, Jamie works hard to bring through as many children as possible.  Hope to see all of you there-it will be a helpful, uplifting afternoon.  

I am so honored to be able to present to the Whole Family of Helping Parents Heal. Our loved ones are but a thought away from us and are always open to make a connection with you. One of my goals in doing what I do, is to bring closure to the old connection and a whole New beginning to the New one. Our loved ones want to connect with us, like we want to connect with them, and making your own connection is THE BIGGEST GIFT that you can give them and ourselves. As we learn to live with them in this new connection, you will begin to live life, rather than survive it. When we are surviving life, we tend to come from the bottom of the Heart and Soul, and when we are Living, we come from the FULLNESS of the Heart and Soul. So, let your Love shine and your Souls connect, because... it's truly all about LOVE!!!

-Peace, Jamie (Please RSVP for this meeting here and learn more about Jamie here)

Love and Light to Karen West 
Catherine, John and Karen West

I have had the privilege of knowing Karen West, a talented artist and fellow bereaved mom. Karen always had an uplifting word for those around her. Everyone who attended our monthly meetings of Helping Parents Heal here in Arizona benefited from her gentle spirit.  She made those around her feel important and cared-for.

Sending love and light to you, dear Karen. I know that you are having an amazing reunion with your children, Quinn, Skylar and Sierra. Thank you for your compassion, beauty and quiet strength.  Please give our kids a big hug, and until we meet again.  You can learn more about Karen and support her family here.  

Dr. Mark Pitstick and his book 'SoulProof'

Evolved Souls Don’t Need Long Earthly Lives
August 2016

by Mark Pitstick, MA, DC

Welcome to the Helping Parents Heal Q & A.  The death of a child is very difficult, painful, and sad.  At the same time, it can be a spiritually transformative experience.  You can—moment by moment—choose to heal by awakening to your and their true nature (much more than the physical body), honoring their lives, serving others, and enjoying life again.  That’s the balance Helping Parents Heal seeks to maintain.
 
I recommend reading the Foundational Articles for Healing and Transformation that form a basis for my answers.  Links at lower left of www.soulproof.com home page.
 
I’ve also created several products with information and strategies for surviving and even thriving amidst your suffering. http://www.soulproof.com/shop/  If you truly can’t afford them, let us know and we’ll send them to you at no charge.  Then, when you are doing better, you can “pay it forward” and help others. 

Q: My daughter Marlena received her wings 7 years ago and I miss her like the first day I lost her. Many people around me do not speak of her and believe I should be over it by now. I have lost thirty-year friendships. People I saw everyday slowly pulled away. I finally asked and the answer I got was it was too uncomfortable to be around me. No, I am not over my loss as so many of you are not. Be it a day, a month, a year, or years to come, our loss is just that, our loss. - Marlena’s Mom
 
A: I’m glad you know you’re not the only one who still grieves deeply after many years.  It’s impossible for those who haven’t had a child transition to fully understand just how deep the pain and sense of loss goes.  I’m also sorry that loved ones have distanced themselves; that is fairly common.

There’s another side of the coin, though, isn’t there?  You now have an opportunity to fly above this in spirit.  Your pain and sadness can be transmuted into greater compassion and love for others.  You can serve others in Marlena’s name and thereby honor her eternal life.  I recommend the following for sixty days, then let me know how you’re doing:
1. Use Transformational Breathwork to release some of the pain and remember that life and love are forever.
2. Do basic self-care practices daily as described in Foundational Article #14
3. Minimize the word “loss” when speaking about Marlena since 99.9% of her is still very much alive, happy, and wants you to be happy again.
4.  Get more involved in your service group, church, or community to honor her life and help you heal and recover.
 
Q: As my daughters 4th birthday in heaven fast approaches, I'm stricken with the same heavy heart, panic, confusion, and fog.  I miss my little girl so much. I will release balloons at the exact minute she was born as part of my way of coping. How should we celebrate when a child’s birthday comes around? - Katie
 
A: There’s no one best way, Katie.  The release of balloons sounds perfect since her real self did seem to fly away four years ago.  Much contemporary evidence, however, indicates that she is not a zillion miles away in the sky somewhere.  She is very near; it’s just that most humans can’t perceive her higher and finer energy.  Perhaps the ultimate celebration is to continue healing and letting your light brighten the world. 
 
Your list of symptoms suggests that your brain and hormonal systems may be out of balance.  I recommend that you get evaluated and tuned-up with Nutrition Response Testing so you feel more happy, healthy, and energetic again.  See article #7, point #11 to learn more about this safe, affordable, natural, and effective way to get well again.  You deserve that and your daughter’s soul will definitely celebrate your return to more joy and peace. 
 
Q: Ugh, having a boo-hooey day. Our living son's 4th birthday party is this weekend and we invited several extended family members and their children who are all pretty close to the same age. NO ONE IS COMING. They have all slowly phased us out in the 2 ½ years since our daughter passed. They don't invite us to anything and they don't come when we extend an invitation. I don't understand. I would NEVER have treated any of them this way had the shoe been on the other foot. - Jamie
 
A: I’m sorry for what you have gone through, Jamie.  You have every right to feel down.  As with Marlena’s mom, you are going through additional challenges that no one should have to endure—especially after their child changes worlds.  In a perfect world, loved ones would be more, not less, sensitive and supportive.  Their actions are a reminder of the great fear that most people have about death.  They are freaked out by it, don’t know what to say, and are petrified to even imagine it happening to them.  So they avoid what makes them uncomfortable.  

I have a feeling, though, that there is hope for at least some of your family members.  You may want to choose one with the most open heart and mind.  Talk to him or her about your feelings, but in a spirit of resolution, not laying on guilt.  That could create a new moment of renewed discussions and reunions.  It might also help them realize that death is a totally safe part of this life that is never-ending but often changing. 
 
Q: A couple months before my daughter Samantha passed on, I thought I heard a loud knock on my front door at 4am.  The door is right outside my bedroom window; I looked out the window but didn’t see anyone. I called out, but no one answered. I got back in bed, fell asleep, and had a bad dream that something happened to one of my children. I called Samantha that morning and was so relieved she was ok.  A few months later, it was 4am when the Coroner knocked on my door to tell me my daughter had been in a fatal car accident. I have been trying to figure out if I had a premonition or something? – Patti

A: Yes, it’s fairly common for parents to have some sort of early warning that prepares them—at least a bit—for the transition of their child.  The 4am time certainly seems to be a meaningful coincidence or synchronicity.  It could also be a pre-arranged signal between your and Samantha’s souls so you would, at least unconsciously, know the time was approaching for her exit into the next phase of forever.  Premonitions are one of many indications that even apparently senseless tragedies have timing and purpose.  

Note: This information is not designed to replace medical or psychological care.  Dr. Pitstick’s recommendations are based on his forty-three years of professional training and experience in hospitals, mental health centers, and holistic private practice.  

Mark Pitstick, MA, DC is an author, clinical psychologist, chiropractic physician, frequent media guest, and workshop leader who helps you know and show that—no matter what is going on around you—this earth-experience is a totally safe and magnificent adventure amidst forever. Visit www.soulproof.com for free radio shows with top consciousness experts, newsletters, and articles addressing life’s toughest changes and challenges.  Email Mark at mark@soulproof.com to ask him your toughest and most challenging questions

-Dr. Mark Pitstick is a Board Member of Helping Parents Heal and of Eternea

Fellowship and Coincidences by Ernie and Kristine Jackson
Kristine and Ernie
The Gift

My gift comes on the heels of the worst tragedy.  My gift is appreciation and gratitude, for my family.  My gift caused me to have a paradigm shift, from being absorbed in more worldly things like my job, the money I made, the nightly news - to what is, in fact, essential.  I was aware of this before since so much of what I did was for my family’s comfort, but the gift changed it somehow.  It made it more!

I received the gift of perspective, and all of us who have lost someone who is dear have received it.  All of us who have had a child transition to the other side before we have, leaving us here, struggling to get our footing in this new normal, have been given this gift.  

As we move beyond our enormous pain, as our children visit us in our dreams and send us signs, we learn that they actually aren’t “dead.” Still, we miss them so.  But forging past that gaping hole, many of us end up with a divine appreciation – for everything. And this perspective is our gift to the world; a gift we have an opportunity to share with others.  

Our son, Quinton Stone Jackson, immediately began to visit us after transitioning in a horrible accident.  These visits changed everything, but still, there is hurt; hurt about which I need not tell you.  And now, we are blessed to be grandparents; the eldest turns three on July 17th, and the youngest turned one on March 18th.  

It is hard to express the joy they bring to Kristine and me.  Especially me, because now I know and I understand what I missed.  Of course, all grandparents feel the same way about their grandchildren, but for a grandparent who has lost a child, that magical bond seems to multiply by, well, pick a number.

I give my gift to them; the gift of being present.  Looking these treasured grandchildren deeply in their eyes as we babble, making faces and funny noises; as we cuddle and walk and swim.  Of course, not all of us have grandkids, but we still have an opportunity lovingly to share our gift of perspective, gratitude, and appreciation with those around us.  It is not an obligation to do so because sometimes we just don't feel up to it.  However, being able to share when we do feel uplifted or when the moment is right, sharing the perspective that we are grateful to be with our friends and loved ones is remarkable.

So, here I sit, after publishing two books, moving in and out of the corporate world. Here I sit, just completing the 2nd edition of 'Quinton’s Messages' and reliving along the way.  Here I sit with the realization that I am honored to be part of my daughter and son-in-law’s lives, and especially a part of my grandson’s lives.  This inclusion is more important than anything else.  It overshadows everything, and it shapes our future.

We are needed.  We have a valued perspective that today's world today yearns to understand.  We don’t have to preach it, just live it, so that others may see us and be equally inspired to have the gratitude and appreciation that we have for life.  Share the gift.

-Blessings!  May you recognize the signs of your loved ones when they visit!
-Ernie and Kristine Jackson

-Ernie Jackson is a Board Member of Helping Parents Heal and the proud father of Quinton.  His two books,'Quinton's Messages' and 'Quinton's Legacy', are available at www.quintonsmessages.com. Please also view Ernie and Kristine's video of their June 2015 presentation at the Phoenix/Scottsdale Chapter of Helping Parents Heal here.

Helpful, Healing Books
"Soul Proof-Compelling Evidence You are an Infinite Spirit" by Dr. Mark Pitstick
 
Dr. Mark Pitstick is a board member of Helping Parents Heal and the author of our monthly newsletter column, 'Evolved Souls Don't Need Long Earthly Lives'.  He is also a board member of Eternea.  The first of his books, "Soul Proof," is an uplifting account that includes nine categories of proof of our existence as indestructible spiritual beings.  

Imagine how wonderful life would be if you REALLY KNEW--without a doubt--that no one really dies. Think of how your life would change for the better if you were convinced that life is a totally safe and magnificent adventure amidst eternity. Consider how reassuring it would be if irrefutable evidence proved we each are indestructible spiritual beings having a temporary earthly experience. "Soul Proof" by Dr. Mark Pitstick provides that proof. Bernie Siegel, M.D., wrote a long and fascinating forward. Exclusive contributions were made by esteemed researchers and teachers Drs. Wayne Dyer, Raymond Moody, Brian Weiss, Ken Ring, and others. Nine categories of proof include scientific, clinical, religious, and firsthand evidence that we each really are immortal souls who are forever one with Creator. This knowledge supplants our faith and helps us cope--and even thrive--despite common challenges like deaths of loved ones, aging, loss of relationships, financial reversals, serious illness and disability, abuse, and so on. Dr. Pitstick's book provides the 'good news that sets us free', that helps us trust this wonderful and mysterious journey on earth. "Soul Proof" allows us to be bright beacons of hope, love, and courage no matter what our outer circumstances.

Please click here to see our list of recommended reading.

Affiliate Updates - 

Carol Allen holds her first meeting of HPH-Cave Creek September 1st!
Tyler Allen and his Mom, Carol

Please join Carol Allen for the first meeting of Helping Parents Heal - Cave Creek! 

Hello, I am so happy to have the opportunity to participate in Helping Parents Heal.  It has been an amazing tool for me during this difficult journey that we call grief.  My husband and I raised our two boys in Cave Creek, AZ.  My oldest son TJ is 24 and my baby Tyler is forever 19.  Tyler gained his angel wings on May 14, 2015 when he was hit by a car while on his motorcycle.  Tyler is always with me, as are your children, he has proven this so many times.  I am honored to be able to share my wonderful experiences with parents and siblings.  I look forward to healing each other heal.  

-All my love, Carol Allen

Carol lives in Cave Creek near JoMax Road and Tatum Boulevard. This meeting will be smaller than our monthly meetings at Unity of Phoenix and will allow parents to get together in an informal setting and share about their children. The group will be limited to 12-15 people, so please let Carol know you will be coming as soon as you can! Her email address is: homesbycarol@q.com. Please RSVP and learn more here.

LeAnn Hull holds her first meeting of HPH-Desert Hills September 30th!
Leann Hull and her son Andy

Please join LeAnn Hull for the first meeting of Helping Parents Heal - Desert Hills! LeAnn is the founder of the Andy Hull Sunshine Foundation: www.andyssunshine.com. 

After the relocation to Heaven of her 16 year old son, Andy, LeAnn Hull formed a non-profit called Andy Hulls Sunshine Foundation, www.andyssunshine.com. She loves sharing with others her coping skills which have been helpful to manage her grief and loss with a "You Matter!" Approach. 

LeAnn lives in Desert Hills, north of Carefree Highway between Tramonto and Cave Creek. This meeting will be smaller than our monthly meetings at Unity of Phoenix and will allow parents to get together in an informal setting and share about their children. The group will be limited to 12-15 people, so please let LeAnn know you will be coming as soon as you can! Her email address is: leannhull@hotmail.com.  You can RSVP and learn more by clicking here.  

HPH- Northants, UK - Launch Meeting October 2nd!
Tracy Bayes and Katrina Thomson

After the wonderful success of Marta Arce-Dubois' launch meeting in Surrey, UK, on June 26th,  Tracy Bayes and Katrina Thomson have stepped forward to become affiliate leaders in Northants, UK.  Their first meeting is scheduled on October 2nd.  Please read more about these two amazing moms:

Tracy Bayes - I am a mother to four children, one of which is now residing on the spirit side of life. I am also a Nanny to three beautiful children. Being a medium and a healer my work brings me into contact with many bereaved parents like myself. My daughter Georgina passed away on 18^th of March 1992, just 19 hours after birth. Her twin sister Charlotte was born first without complications, however due to many medical errors my daughter Georgina was severely damaged and passed due to the injuries she sustained.

The next four years are but a blur but the strange happenings I had experienced as a child came back. I was hearing voices and seeing spirit people and knowing stuff I didn’t want to know or sense. In May 1998 disaster struck again as my brother was killed aged 25years in a car accident. From that moment on I have made it my life’s purpose to connect loved one’s spirit side to loved ones here in the physical.

After Georgina passed there was no support at all, my family tried to help but a lot of their comments were more hurtful than helpful. So I carried a lot of grief for a lot of years. With the help of my daughters and brother’s energy and love, I now help a lot of other families feel connected and prove beyond any doubt that loved ones reside on another level of existence one that we can sense and feel if we allow ourselves too. With the help of my co-leader Katrina who I met by reading for her and connecting her to her beautiful Son Leighton we are creating Helping parents heal UK – Northants group to support, comfort and care.
 
Katrina Thomson - I have always from a young child been interested in all things spiritual and believed in the survival of the soul. It’s this believe that has helped me through when my son aged 5 passed away from Leukaemia. There is just no support out there for bereaved parents at all, and as a bereaved parent you can feel very isolated and alone. Talking to like - minded people and other bereaved parents is the closest you can get to people understanding at some level how you feel and what you are going through. The most amazing thing is being connected to your loved one through a medium – My co-leader Tracy Bayes has brought me a lot of comfort by connecting my son and I, knowing he still lives on another plane gives me great comfort knowing I will see him again one day. He gives me signs he is still with us too which is incredible. After attending our first meeting at Helping Parents Heal UK, Tracy and I discussed how we as a county (Northamptonshire) have a great need for a group like this to help people with their grief, and so it begins.  Please RSVP and learn more here.  

HPH-Tampa - Marla Grant welcomes co-affiliate leader Amy Diehl! 
Amy Diehl and her son Chris

Greetings everyone, It is pleasure to be so welcomed into this wonderful organization. These meetings are filling a huge void in healing for parents in our area who are mourning the loss of their children and may be looking for a safe environment for alternative conversations about death and loss. My mother-in-law actually clipped out the announcement of the first meeting for my husband and me; as soon as I saw it, I knew we had to attend. Marla did such an excellent job running the meeting that when she asked if I wanted to co-lead, I said yes. It felt like this was the natural progression of the remarkable journey I have been on ever since Chris passed.

Chris’s  death was the hardest, most soul searing experience I have ever gone through and continue to go through. However, it is also the most loving, heart opening, soul expanding experience I have ever had as well. Through him, I have been able to truly feel the beauty and love of the world we all come from and to which we will all return after this go-around at life. As a former skeptic with no religious training,  and only recent spiritual awareness, having my son come to me directly several days after he died and feeling that outpouring of light and love, changed my world. This touch with Grace gave me the strength and sense of peace that came from it, to share my story with family and friends at the celebration of Chris’s  life. There is no doubt I was channeling Chris for the purpose of sharing that beauty and peace as well as some lessons he wanted to pass along (have fun and live big!) with those who loved him. Through my participation in Helping Parents Heal, I hope to contribute a sense of what I experienced to those still lost in pain and grief, and to continue to learn from others to broaden my spiritual awareness.

I am so appreciative of Marla asking me to join her in this vital community offering and hope to help her build this program so it reaches anyone in need. The death of a child can be so crippling and if we can help grieving parents feel some sense of hope and relief, I’m in!

In Gratitude, Amy Diehl 

The next meeting of Helping Parents Heal - Tampa will be held August 31st at the Franciscan Renewal Center.  Please RSVP and learn more here.  

HPH-Bluffton/Hilton Head Upcoming Events
Dwanna Paul, Jake Samoyedny, Suzanne Giesemann and Sara Ruble

Our Blufton/Hilton Head Affiliate Leader, Irene Vouvalides, has a wonderful schedule of upcoming speakers; In September, Trance Medium Dwanna Paul, in October, Jake Samoyedny, the Compassionate Medium, in January 2017, Evidential Medium and Messanger of Hope Suzanne Giesemann and in May 2017 intuitive and bereaved mom Sara Ruble.  Irene holds her meetings on the second Sunday of every month from 1-4 pm in the Seaquins Ballroom, 1300 Fording Island Road, Bluffton SC.  

While Suzanne Giesemann is in Bluffton, she will be offering a workshop on January 7th from 9 am - 4:30 pm.  You can learn more and sign up here!

Irene will be speaking at the August meeting of our Hawaii affiliate leader, Beth D'Angelo, on August 27th from 4 - 7 pm.  Please RSVP and learn more here!  If you are in the area, Beth and Irene would love to see you there.

HPH - Phoenix/Scottsdale with Psychic Medium Fara Gibson and David Router 
Fara Gibson - Fara, David Router and Lilla Swanson and many of our wonderful parents

We had an amazing meeting with Fara Gibson on July 24th!  Many thanks to all who attended.  It was an uplifting, healing afternoon.

First, Lilla Swanson and Carol Allen told about the healing that they received from David Router, an energy healer from Queensland, Australia.  Carol and Susan Wadsworth each won a free energy seminar from David in a lottery at our June meeting.  Carol told how David's workshop helped both her and her son.  David then explained more about his energy healing and led a guided meditation to help us ground and redistribute our energy to better heal our grief.  Please read more about Carol and her son TJ in our August 2016 Helping Parents Heal newsletter.  

During the meeting, Psychic Medium Fara Gibson spent several hours bringing through validations from children for the parents who attended.  She was compassionate, talented and funny. Please learn more about Fara on her website. 

Thanks to all who attended and a special thanks to our wonderful speakers. Please join us August 21st as we welcome Psychic Medium Jamie Clark.  You can learn more and RSVP by clicking here.  

David Router will be holding an upcoming workshop, Mastering Healing Energy, at Storm Wisdom in Phoenix on October 23rd from 1-4pm, on the 26th from 6-8:30 pm and on the 29th from 1-4 pm.  There will be a discount code for members of Helping Parents Heal - please email Lilla Swanson at lillaswanson1@gmail.com if you are interested!  

-Elizabeth Boisson - Phoenix/Scottsdale Affiliate Leader 

Sheri’s Corner-
Wisdom and Quotes from The East Coast

“Tell them that I exist. Tell them that our hearts and our love go on. Tell them to look everywhere, every day without pain and without sadness. We are all in the holiest of healing light and love. Just know we are not gone.”

-Daniel Migdol through Medium Roland Comtois to his mother.       

This is one quote that I treasure. I was in a workshop with medium Roland Comtois in December of 2010 and had asked if Dan had a message for other parents and received this the above.

I was always taught that if you could not see something, that it did not exist. I now know that I was taught wrong and that the invisible realm of spirit is as real as the solid buildings and landscapes that fill our senses with images. Not only is the invisible realm as real, but in actuality is more real, for this world of physical reality is temporary and the realm of spirit is forever. Undoubtedly, most of us were taught wrong!